I want someone to read my poems or stories and no longer be confused... maybe because for me authors did that, when ever i was going through something reading about the character's trials made it all easier to deal with.
Maybe my words won't help, and maybe someone will just laugh at them but i guess that's okay... because in a crazy way I'm okay with that because i write so that i can vent my feelings without hurting anyone... And that might sound stupid or like i have a problem but i guess it helps me get all my ducks in a row.
Okay so now that i'm done saying worthless words here's the poem:
Maybe I was just confused,
Maybe I was broken; or there's also a chance that I was just not really there at all.
But those words that I said, I didn't mean them...
I was scared,
I was scared that if I let you in I might just lose a piece of me as well...
Stupid, well it might just be; But that never crossed my mind.
All I could think of was how amazing your kisses were and how great it was to be in your arms....
I never thought about the bigger picture;
and that's why I lost you... Because I was to stupid to hold on to the best thing to happen to me.
Will I regret it?
For everyday of my life I will regret saying goodbye to you,
And it's not because I won't know what could have been it's because now I will never be able to say I tried to keep you, instead I stayed home to protect my heart when it was already your and when you left...
You took it with you and I never saw it again.
Maybe that's why even after all these years I'm still searching for you...
And I will never stop until I can honestly say that I said goodbye.
